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Kink of the Week: Protocol

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I looked up the definition of protocol and it said that it was a code of correct conduct. To me that could mean several things in and of itself.

For the first few months of my relationship protocol was a very big deal. I had certain things to do almost like a ritual. I was expected to act a certain way and word my responses in a way that was showing the most respect. I really enjoyed that aspect of of the relationship.

For me the whole thing that interested me in this lifestyle was the giving up of control. I am a mommy all day everyday. (and sometimes all night too) But mostly, when my son went to bed, the control was happily given over to M. I could feel my whole body relax and the stress of the day just leave my body as I slid from mommy into slave. The protocol that was expected of me was what made it so easy to transition. I knew my jobs were, I knew how I was supposed to please him and talk to him. It was just easier.

I used the past tense in a lot of the previous paragraphs because sadly there is no longer a protocol. We have lost the M/s of who we were as a couple. We still love each other very much, but have lost the one thing that brought us together in the first place.

I didn’t realize how important to me protocol was until I sat down to write this. I miss the formality of it. I miss the sliding into my place like sliding into a comfy sweater. I’ve been feeling a little lost lately, and maybe this is what was at the root of it. I need that back, the code that I’m expected to follow.

I don’t know if this is what others think of when they think of protocol but to me that is what it means. I really look forward to continuing these kink of the week postings. I’m starting to find myself again in remembering and thinking about these topics.

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I am a mother, daughter, sister, but most of all I am my Master's slave. I'm also a little bit crazy, and decided blogging was the perfect way to share my craziness with the world. There will be ups, and there will be downs. So hold on tight, and away we go.

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